I’ve been MIA. You may or may not have noticed but the truth is that doesn’t really matter. What does matter is that I am eager to reconnect with with all of you. I haven’t had much to say over the past many months and I know that’s okay. Just like it’s okay to not always be okay. We all get stuck in the mud sometimes and the past several months have felt muddy. Muddy and hard and confusing but I’ve been doing my best to trust the process and the lessons that lie within all of these moments. And by moments I mean a lot of transition. Change is so hard, isn’t it?
A few years ago, as I healed, my illness acted as a strong catalyst for change in my personal and professional life. Fast forward to this past year. While I was able to identify with being “well” for the first time in years, I also realized that so many aspects of myself and my life had changed. It was time for the next lesson it seemed. I am not sure I was quite ready but are we ever, really?
So, after nearly ten years of working with the Phillies and Unite For HER, both positions came to an end.
I was ready to open new doors but the reality was these transitions were bittersweet and difficult.
I found myself feeling lost and unsure of what to do next. Who was I without without these positions? Could I detach myself from the identities and success attached to them?
This lesson isn’t new to me but clearly I had not fully learned it. There have been so many moments in my life when I realized my worth was falsely wrapped up in “identity” or external validation. I know I am not alone in this. It’s part of being human.
Thankfully, I was aware enough to know that the universe was gifting me the opportunity to find my worth within myself instead of from those external validations. I am still a work in progress but I’m getting there. This is a really tough lesson to learn even when you see it clearly.
Fast forward to now. I’m just starting to find my voice again. I am meeting my true self little by little. I feel grounded in the fact that a big part of my purpose is to connect with and serve my community. It’s also to prioritize myself. I feel more clear as to what that is supposed to look like and have started to create new opportunities. Stay tuned! A few announcements coming shortly!
What’s top of mind these days and soon to land on these pages? What does self-love actual mean? And self-care? How can we connect with our own internal sense of worthiness? What does it mean to show up for ourselves because I’m learning this is everything.
More on all of this to come over the next couple of weeks but long story short, I am happy to say I am choosing to be back here with all of you. I missed this connection. I missed this community.
For those of you that are swimming in the mud. I see you. You are not alone. I love you and I am eager to support you.
With humble gratitude,